Grrrr!

I'm pretty angry with myself right now. I've been consciously working on being 'in the moment' so as not to worry myself to death like I usually do. I'm quite the worrywort apparently and experiencing a short string of happy, carefree days had me a bit spoiled. But now I can't even begin to slow my brain down! The worst part is that I'm just recycling the same crappy thoughts. There's nothing new that I'm worrying about, just a resurrection of one particular worry that I thought I had gotten rid of for a little while. It's ridiculous. It's not even important. I'm just making shit up in my mind. Oddball scenarios that are probably not even true. And my playing this situation over and over a million times in a row is not helping me overcome the fear that drives it. I'm only reinforcing the very attitudes and behaviors in which my worry is rooted. But hopefully my typing this will help me confront it in my mind. See it for what it is. It's just a thought. A thought that I can let go of.

My commute home will be the real test. It's a nice, long drive without much distraction. Very conducive to meditation (eyes open, of course).