Deer in my dreams

I posted awhile back on witnessing a deer shortly after being injured by a passing vehicle. It was tragic. The other night I had a somewhat similar incident in my dreams. Well, I say 'similar' when in fact the only things they share are a deer and death. The other night I had a dream that I was in the wilderness and I was forced to feed myself. I suppose I was sick of gathering berries and whatnot so I planned on some game hunting. Some very shallow trenches were dug and a trap set in the bottom of each. The trap mechanism was similar to that of a bear trap only on a smaller, less-intensely-bone-crunching scale. And then I just sat there and waited. Everything was perfectly still for who knows how long when a single deer came wandering in. I remember getting excited, hoping the deer would step on the trap, and of course he did. And then I wrestled the deer down and broke his neck. Just like that. That's kind of where the dream ends, thankfully. The last thing I would have wanted was an even more graphic dream of skinning and gutting the deer. Or maybe I would've just ripped into it's flesh as if it were a turkey leg at the carnival.

Speaking of eating raw meat...I saw a show on TV not too long ago about a guy that regularly purchased meat from the grocery store and just ate it. Raw steaks and even ground fucking beef. Honestly, the idea is slightly intriguing except for the ground beef part. I've had steak tartar, I love sushi, and I always order my steaks bloody rare. One time, while dining and an expensive and reputable restaurant, I ordered a rare 22 oz porterhouse. It wasn't my best decision but it was certainly an experience.

So back to my swiftly snapping a deer's neck in my dreams. Dream interpretation has always fascinated me so why not analyze this dream right now and see what it means? I won't be using one source for my interpretation. Instead, I'll find the best (or most interesting) meanings that fit with my current situation since dreams are supposed to be subconcious reflections on our waking life.

• Deer: grace, compassion, gentleness, innocence, meekness, the feminine
• Killing a deer: mastery over instincts I've struggled to control
• Catching an animal in a trap: I will be successful in his/her chosen career

Hmm, very interesting...not sure exactly what to make of it. Maybe I need to man up and not be so compassionate. Or maybe I should remain meek and graceful until I'm "successful in my chosen career" and then I should break my meekness's neck and turn into a real douchebag. Or maybe I should master my feminine side. I've grown out my beard again. That counts for something, right? And I did just work out the night before I had that dream after a nearly month long hiatus (broken rib). So maybe all that extra adrenaline and stuff pushed me into caveman mode.